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Smile Sadly In Dull Rust
You smile sadly in dull rust,
And the tears flow gently to the cusp
Of your lips, as they twist and creak
Into that accepting, defeated beam.
A child in collision with the world,
Now has worn eyes, for the hazards unfurled.
Those cruel amounts you chose to take
Are weights upon your once beaming face.
Instinct told you to go with him
And ignored all sense of reasoning.
Regret would carry you back, by chance
That it could mend your broken heart.
Love's lost and it's rain pours down,
Softening the soil on which you are bound,
Until each weighted step is increased,
To the point that you cannot move your feet.
So trapped are you in misery,
Even your smile tells of defeat,
The love you had has left your heart,
Leaving you only with bitter remarks.
Love is the cruelest game to play,
For it threatens to take your life away,
As you smile sadly in dull rust,
A tear falls gently on it's cusp.
What He Did
He was a friend of mine,
The best one I ever had.
Through a tendency to discard problems with our drinking hands,
There is solitude in weakness when another understands,
This could still be,
But for what he did.
He has let me down,
Now I am all alone.
Together we were twice as strong as I am feeling now,
We carried each other thick & thin and now he lets me down.
A broken bridge,
for what he did.
I lie wide awake,
Lost in disbelief.
He told me every single day he didn't want Lisa Green,
When he already had her and everyone knew but me,
I cannot sleep,
Cos of what he did.
I am brushed aside,
Alone in my room.
I know they are out and having fun while I date misery,
Not ready yet for moving on so I'll dwell on what could have been,
What could still be,
But for what he did.
He was a friend of mine,
The best one I ever had.
Through a tendency to discard problems with our drinking hands,
There is solitude in weakness when another understands,
This could still be,
But for what he did.
If You Break My Heart,
You Will Only Set Me Free
Tangled up in turmoil, confused by feelings which are my own,
Trying to hide myself from emotions I haven't even known.
Like a shadow on the edge of the night,
Slipping gently from the warning signs.
Tell me why is it that you cannot believe a word I say,
How could you be sitting next to me yet feel so far away?
You allow your heart to twist & curl,
And fall for madness in this crazy world.
How can it be we're both so trapped by love's rewards?
Makes me wonder, what on earth did we begin this for?
I cannot remember anymore,
Questions need answers more & more.
Angels and Archangels sing in silence to your heart,
For silence is all you hear when you deny what fate has cast.
All you do is lose love this way,
And fall to fear, regret, & shame.
Am I Still Dreaming?
Am I still Dreaming,
Or haven't you seen the half of me,
Where night and aggravation goes?
Where my heart has burned a hole?
Where I'm pushing at my own world?
Where I'm tired and left all alone?
All on my own.
Am I still dreaming,
Or did you just walk away from me?
This boy is trying hard to be a man,
But this sheep i s no more than a lamb,
This idea still short of a plan,
This nowhere-ness not on the map.
Dunno how to act.
Am I still dreaming,
Or did you just misunderstand me?
And now everything is dead,
And now all I have is regret,
And now I'm not worthy to beg,
And now life seaps from every ebb,
From every ebb.
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